disappointment

*sigh*

be united lost 4-0 to be fc yesterday. we played well in the first half but we were screwed in the second half.

but that is not the problem that makes me disappointed. it's my self. im so upset about yesterday. not because of the football match but ..

let me share it with you.

yesterday,i was hanging out with nj at the school. while walking to the place that we called 'lupak',i remembered that safwan told me that he saw kim talking with her friends near our spot.

as we arrived at lupak,nj and i was trying to find a spot. i found kim spot at the first place and i told nj about it. nj invited me to sit with kim and her friends. i nodded without a word.

i was so nervous but i managed to hold my self and maintained my cool(prasan) haha xp. then as i sat there,nj introduce me to kim and her friends. i met this guy who called himself a king kong. haha his name is kong,he's a chinese guy. he explains why did he called himself king kong,it's because he play basketball like a monkey. okay,enough talk.

*sigh*

then the disappointment comes. i was being silent all the time without asking kim anything to start a conversation. nj pinch my thigh telling to talk to her. i told her that i have nothing to talk. i was so blurr,my mind was empty. i couldnt think a word to start a conversation with her.

'damn! what happened to me? come on talk. she's infront of you now. this the time dammit!'

*sigh*

it's always been like this. i can talk to every girl that i wanted but not the one i admired. damn,i was such an a*sho*e. i waste the oppoturnity that i got. i suck! it's so frustrating.

then a minutes later her dad arrived. she's going home. then all her friends bye her. realising that i was stunned and not going to say anything to her. nj pinch my thigh again,then i said bye to her. but i guess she didnt heard it.

i know i wasted my opportunity yesterday. nj was really mad at me. she gave me the chance to talk to her but i didnt grab it. i know guys,you'll also be mad at me because of this.

okay,that's all i wanted to share for now. ill share some if i've something to tell. (:

*exeunt*